BEHIND THE SCENES...of a live theater preformance.

Holy Moley what a weekend! This, the weekend of February 14-16th, 2020 was a massive accumulation of lessons learned and art expressed.

Many of you may not know but I am an acting addict, I only recently admitted this to myself (Let's say the past five years or so). Currently, I am thirteen years into studying the art of emotions that some call acting. After so many years I felt secure in my art. This weekend I was proven embarrassingly wrong.

After so many years of acting in front of a independent film camera I felt secure. I needed something that made me scared again. I began the switch to Stage. Oy boy has that been a journey. This past Valentines weekend I was apart of a large ensemble of talented New Mexican actors/actresses that were preforming 10 separate 10 minute scenes at the Aux Dog Theatre of Nob Hill.

My amazing partner Bradd and I had a total of four (maybe five but I can't remember) rehearsals over two weeks with a 10 page performance. Sooner than either of us could anticipate the opening weekend was here. We felt secure in our memorization and stormed onto the stage with confidence and grace...until.

We hit a rough patch. I blanked in front of a FULL HOUSE of audience members. I stuttered and faltered and doubted my own mind in the span of 14 seconds. Of which I spoke the wrong line skipping 3 pages of the script to which my gracious partner continued from those lines cutting our performance short. Walking off stage I felt a deep pit in my gut, something I have felt 3 times before...shame. How could I do this to our scene! I self edited our LIVE PERFORMANCE from a ten minute play to a five! I quickly dived into myself trying to self console. I focused on how to improve due to the fact that I had no choice but to get better. You see, we had to preform on Saturday and Sunday. I had fucked up so badly it could only get better from here. Of which, it did. WE NAILED IT! Both Sat and Sun were amazingly successful and fulfilling. We didn't forget a single line! My pride gleamed and my heartbeat was fast with excitement after each completed show. No line missed, no emotional beat skipped. Success and the assurance that I had learned the most important lesson of all; to fail.

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