My First Group Video Chat

The world is different. This moment in history is rare. In this year of 2020 the world is joined together. Whether it is in tragedy, uncertainty, being overworked or confined to your home we all can relate to each other. Ha, Now let me talk about myself selfishly.

Today I had my first video call. Since being cast in multiple roles within Caryl Churchill's 'Top Girls' drama, which was due to open at a prestigious playhouse in town, a lot has happened. our team all decided to talk about our future. My co-stars faces pop up Brady Bunch style.

This was the first time I saw all of of the women I was to preform with. My mind immediately feels united. This didn't last long. After small chat we all divulge our situations. That feeling of being united that I mentioned, ya, that's gone. I listened to each star as their tiny video box jumped and pixelated. I understood that everyone couldn't be, due to no circumstance of their own choice, able to unite and rehearse. Yes, living within my house with only my partner for the third week defiantly minimized my understanding of humanity. Who knew! Some of us have very important jobs and other people that require our attention. This pandemic dragging our focus from the performance.

In my thirty years of living with myself I have found that if I don't do SOME type of acting within three months I become an angst angel. I crave the freedom that acting allows. I completely embody the situations of others without consequence. I can be a psychopath, priest, hero, hooker, or beast. Murder is even allowed in acting. All actors volunteer to experience the happiness and horrors of life. It helps me remove myself from reality and right now I really need to be extracted from what is real. Luckily we all agreed that indeed we would one day rehearse. Maybe few months with personal protective equipment of course. Everyone was open to messages, vid calls or texts. Each human understanding that we need connection in any way.

To quench my thirst I will be dedicating myself to making more silly Youtube videos just to quench my need to preform. Go watch. It helps with my sanity. Stay safe out there.